Tuesday, February 21, 2012

A dream

I think I'll post here when something comes to mind and I can find a computer to use.

I had a dream last night.  About her.  Lucia.  She was talking to me, but I couldn't hear her.  I reached out to her, but the closer I got, the more she faded away.  And then she disappeared altogether.  I turned around, and there was some humanoid thing, shaped by symbols.  It reached out to me, and I saw myself disappearing just like Lucia did.  I finally faded away completely.  That's when I woke up, in time to move away from a Proxy who happened to stumble upon me when I was asleep.  I don't think he knew how I got away so fast.

I have been thinking recently, just how much I changed, back when I first got my powers.  I became more brash, more occupied with exploring my powers, more determined to do great things.  And I think it's because of that that everything turned out this way.  The gifts of demons are truly too much for mankind, but unfortunately I cannot bring everything back to the way it was.  Not everything at least.

The first thing to change, I think, will be my legs.  Perhaps losing my legs again will force me to remember my humility.