Monday, August 29, 2011

Hi everyone

Hey, this is Tony.  I don't know how many people are out there reading this (I know there's at least one, but the page is messed up) but there's something you all should know about Clark.  We each other just about all our lives, but after that accident, he wasn't the same, and I don't just mean him losing his legs like that, his mind changed too.  I remember one night when I was visiting, we were watching a movie (princess mononoke I think) and some big black monster came on the screen, and he freaked out, fell out his chair and started crawling at the screen saying stuff like oh the mortal god, and stuff like that.  Honestly that was weird, but i just put it up to the crash.  But ever since then he's been weird, like seeing things that aren't there.  There was one psychologist who said it was PTSD from the crash ad losing his legs, but that does't expain a lot of it. I don't know, just don't take everything he says for granted.  See you guys later I guess.

Sunday, August 28, 2011

Cronos must be the most impatient of all.

Tony tells me that it has been too long since my first post here, and I suppose four days us a long time.  A lot can happen in four days.  In fact, I believe more than one god has been born and died in that term of time.

Speaking of which, In these four days I have been theorizing on the nature behind some gods I've been studying, who follow after their prey, wearing hem down mentally before ending their life in some gruesome manner.  These gods I've taken to calling 'Breaks', due to the inherently logic-breaking nature.  Oh, I should specify, when I say 'gods' I use the term in a way similar to the esteemed Howard Phillips Lovecraft, referring to any sentient entity that surpasses human's ability of understanding.  The terminology comes with my field of study.

Now, the theory that I've been toying with concerning the Breaks also deals with a common fallacy in their very existence.  Why would a being exist whose goal ad purpose is seemingly to torment and then kill people, normally innocents, while some convert people to their seemingly evil cause?

This is perplexing, because this means the Breaks operate on human logic and morals, but in an opposite direction, something that even the most heinously evil humans throughout history did not manage.  This makes, bluntly, no sense at all, or rather, it makes reversed sense, as though if everything were going backwards, it would make sense.  It was these thoughts that led to my theory.

Breaks' perception of time is reversed to ours.

This would explain quite a bit, and the best example I can provide would require timelines of a typical Break to sort out.  The timeline on the left is the 'familiar' one, following human perception of time, the one on the right is my theoretical 'Broken' time.

Break stalks person                                        Break puts pieces of person together
Person steadily goes insane                           Break brings person to life
Break kills person                                          Person becomes less confused as-
Break dismembers / tears apart person          -Break watches over the person.

These timelines are, yes, disputable, and I could be entirely wrong, however, an altruistic god makes more sense than a senselessly malicious one.

Now, Tony isn't going to allow me to submit this without giving some personal information, seeing as this is a personal log, and he's telling me to relate the details concerning my parents' death and my disability.  The thing is, I've never been comfortable about it.  [Yeah, more like he doesn't tell anyone.  I don't even know what wen ton.  -Tony]  Sorry about that, Tony took my computer.  At any rate, it was a car crash, as I've mentioned before.    The only thing that makes it special, though, is the complete lack of cause.  My mom just swerved off the road, right into a tree.  They both died on impact, and I was rendered unable to walk.  That's all there is, really.

Wednesday, August 24, 2011

And humanity is but a second.

It's been a while since I've done anything remotely social, so anyone who reads this will have to put up with a certain amount of awkwardness from me.  My name is Clark, though I'll keep my surname secret, for my own reasons.  My friends, however, just call me Professor Clark, so you won't have an awkwardly short name to call me by.

The main reason I've started this was because my friend and caretaker, Tony, asked me to, in an attempt to make me reach out to humanity at large again, seeing as for the last five years I've been disabled.  Oh, I'm getting ahead of myself, aren't I?  Yes, I'm mostly paralyzed from the waist down, making it impossible for me to walk on all but the best days.  Tony has been kind enough to give me his time to help me live a comfortable life while I exercise my mind in place of my body.  You see, my nickname of 'Professor' comes from my extensive knowledge on the occult and the mysteries of the universe, of which I am quite proud.

Ah, I think most of you will be confused by something.  All of the previous has probably led you to believe that I am an older gentleman, confined to his wheelchair by age and hip-destroying accidents.  Fortunately for my pride, that is not true.  In reality, I am a 19-year-old, confined to a specialized computer chair by a car accident that took most of my ability to walk, as well as my parents.  Now, that said, I shall leave now, and see who else I can find who share my current topic of interest.  I know that there are many blogs about it.